Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Our new website

Lately I've been working on upgrading St. Antony's website. I asked my son Chad to come up with a new design and he created a test website on his home computer. I modified it a bit and asked the Bishop's Committee to look at it. With their approval, I asked Chad to upload it to our server.

It's up and running, and you can find it at the same web address as before:
http://www.saintantonys.org/

According to Rob Voyle, a church consultant, there are three things to think about when creating a website:
  • The Look - The web pages should be visually appealing, with colors and graphics that are easy on the eyes.
  • The Structure - The site should be easy to navigate, with an intuitive flow through the pages.
  • The Content - The site should provide information that visitors are looking for.
Our new site is oriented to newcomers to our parish. It offers basic information about worship times, our location, and our programs. Today's church shopper usually looks at a church website before attending a church, so it's the first line of evangelism.

The site is also oriented to our members. It has a calendar that is updated by Elisabeth, our church secretary; the monthly newsletter is on the website; Son-Shine Fellowship readings are available; there's a link to this blog; and the weekly announcements are even available from the home page.

One of the hardest things to do is to keep the website updated regularly so the content is always fresh and relevant. I'll be responsible for this task.

I've put photos on the website, but we need a parish photographer to give us high-quality digital photos of parish events to keep the site fresh and up to date. Any takers?
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Monday, March 30, 2009

The Vicar's day off

At our last Bishop's Committee meeting, I asked if I could change my regular day off from Monday to Friday and the BC said yes. I'm trying to re-structure my week so that I can use my time in the best way for me and the parish.

In the past I've used Mondays as my day off to recover from the stress of Sunday. Now I'd like to try taking Friday off so I can have something more like a regular weekend. My Saturdays are usually oriented around getting the sermon into shape. Having a sermon looming the next morning is enough to keep my distracted all day! So I hope that taking Fridays off will be helpful.

The tired old joke about clergy is that "they only work one day a week", so why should they ask for a day off during the week?

But one of the traps that clergy fall into is burnout. It's often hard to measure how much you've accomplished as a clergyperson, so the temptation is to keep working at something - anything - to try to feel like you've "done enough". And of course you can never do enough, so many clergy have poor boundaries when it comes to personal care.

The challenge is to use your time well, and then learn to separate yourself from your work for time off that is refreshing. It's generally accepted that healthy and whole clergy tend to lead healthy and whole parishes. So the best thing for everyone is for the clergy to keep good boundaries and have sufficient time off.

My Letter of Agreement says this:

"The Vicar's scheduled work-week is five days, usually measured as ten units of mornings, afternoons, or evenings in various combinations reflecting the demands of this ministry, and shall include Sunday activities. In general, no more than three evenings per week shall be expected from the Vicar to be committed to congregational activities. The Vicar is expected to preserve at least one continuous twenty-four hour period each week solely for personal use."

Sounds like a good plan!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

The glory of God

In the Gospel text for Sunday, March 29, Jesus talks a lot about glory. What is glory?

The best I can come up with is "shining". In the Hebrew scriptures, people who encounter God or angels often describe a presence so bright it's impossible to look at. The glory of God is like the sun. We always know it's there, but we can't look directly at the sun or we'd be blinded.

In the Gospel passage for Sunday, Jesus speaks of his glorification. He's preparing for his death, so he's thinking about what's coming next for him. First there will be suffering and death. But then comes glorification. In the Gospel of John, the cross is the scene of the glorification of Jesus. In other words, the high point in John is not really the resurrection so much as it is the exalted death of Jesus on the cross. Jesus is glorified in his death.

Jesus loved us so much that he died for us on the cross. When we see the cross, it reminds us of Jesus' great love for us.

Collect for Mission (BCP, p. 101):
Lord Jesus Christ, you stretched out your arms of love on the hard wood of the cross that everyone might come within the reach of your saving embrace: So clothe us in your Spirit that we, reaching forth our hands in love, may bring those who do not know you to the knowledge and love of you; for the honor of your Name. Amen.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Last Supper questions

In the Vicar's Bible Study on Thursdays, we've been studying the Last Supper. Not the painting by Leonardo da Vinci, but the story in the Gospel!

One of the questions we've asked is, "Did Jesus mean to institute the Eucharist at the Last Supper?"

We've looked at the story of the Last Supper in Matthew, Mark, and Luke to compare what each said about the Last Supper, and we also compared them to what Paul said about the sacred meal in 1 Corinthians 11. We concluded that when Jesus said, "Do this in remembrance of me", he was surely telling the disciples to remember him in a regular dinner of some kind. Whether it was the Eucharist or not is another question.

We also compared the Last Supper of Matthew, Mark, and Luke with the account in John. In John, there's no mention of bread or wine, only the story of Jesus washing the feet of the disciples. Did John not have any idea of a sacred meal? We looked at John 6, where Jesus says, "I am the bread of life", and we concluded that even in John there is the making of a sacramental meal.

It's been helpful to immerse ourselves in the story of the Last Supper and imagine what it was like that critical evening so long ago.
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Wash MY feet? A meditation on foot washing

This is the fourth in a series of meditations on the feet of Jesus, given this evening for our Lenten program at St. Antony's.

“Wash MY feet?”
Lenten Meditation
March 25, 2009
The Rev. Bill Fulton

This is the fourth meditation in a series on the feet of Jesus. We’ve spent some time each Wednesday night thinking about the feet of Jesus. The first night we meditated on the passage in Isaiah that says, “How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news!” And we contemplated Jesus’ feet walking over the dusty roads of Galilee and Judea as he traveled from village to village.

The next week we put ourselves in the place of the tenth leper who was healed of his leprosy and then returned to fall at the feet of Jesus to thank him and give praise to God. We imagined ourselves there holding on to those beautiful feet of Jesus that brought us such healing.

Then last week we remembered the story of the woman who washed Jesus’ feet with her tears and dried them with her hair. We thought about how much forgiveness she felt as she washed those beautiful feet of Jesus.

Tonight we’re going to get a little different perspective. Rather than meditate on the feet of Jesus, we’re going to meditate on our own feet being washed by Jesus. The Biblical passage is in John chapter 13, and the scene is the last supper that Jesus will eat on earth.

The disciples have gathered before the Passover, and they are eating a meal together. According to John, it was not the Passover meal, but it was undoubtedly a very meaningful meal for Jesus and his disciples. They were in Jerusalem, and the tension was high in the city because of the things Jesus was saying. The disciples knew that the authorities did not look kindly upon them, and they were undoubtedly concerned as they reclined for their meal.

John says that the devil has already put it into the heart of Judas to betray Jesus. So even at this meal of comradeship and solidarity between Jesus and his disciples, there’s an element of distrust and evil intent. Jesus doesn’t let it bother him, but he simply loves his disciples and he loves them to the very end.

During the supper, Jesus gets up from the table and does something very surprising. He takes off his outer robe and he wraps a towel around his waist. Then he gets a basin and fills it with water from a jug.

He kneels at the feet of one of the disciples and starts to wash his feet. The disciples are in shock at first. “Why is he doing this,” they wonder. Normally the job of washing feet is given to the lowliest of servants and it’s something you don’t even acknowledge.

To have your feet washed is a good thing, because in a land where the streets are always dusty and sandals are open-toed, your feet are almost always gritty and dusty. So to have your feet washed is a welcome and pleasant luxury. But to have your Lord and Teacher doing it? Well, it seems all wrong!

When Jesus comes to Peter, he finally speaks up, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?” he asks in a stunned voice. Jesus says, You don’t know what I’m doing now, but you’ll understand later on.” Peter says, “Lord, you must never wash my feet!” He’s just saying what the other disciples are thinking, that to let Jesus do such a thing is a terrible insult and injury to Jesus’ reputation. What if other people found out?

But Jesus says to Peter, “Unless I wash your feet, you will have no share with me.” In other words, this foot washing is at the core of their relationship. Jesus is willing to make it a test of their friendship.

Peter blurts out, “Not only my feet, then, but also my head and my hands!” Peter would never let something like this come between him and Jesus.

Jesus washes the feet of all the disciples, then he puts up the towel and puts his robe back on. He says to the disciples, “Do you know what I’ve just done to you? You call me Lord and Teacher, and that is right, for so I am. And if I, your Teacher and Lord, wash your feet, then you also must wash one another’s feet. What I’ve done is to set an example for you to follow. You must be servants to one another.”

What Jesus does for them at this last supper is to teach them a lesson they will never forget. For ever after, they will look back and remember that night and all that happened – the foot washing, the speech Jesus gave saying goodbye to them, the betrayal by Judas, the arrest and Peter’s denial of Jesus.

Out of all those things, they remember the foot washing because it was Jesus’ last tender act of love for them before he was taken away.

Washing someone’s feet is a very personal and intimate thing. If you’ve ever had someone wash your feet, you know how revealing it feels. Usually we keep our feet encased in shoes and socks, and we don’t let anyone see them, much less touch them. It seems too personal, too intimate.

Maybe you’ve seen that oil painting by Mary Cassatt around 1900 of a young mother washing the feet of her little girl. The mother has on a long dress and she’s holding the child on her lap with the child’s feet in a basin of water. The little girl’s feet are chubby and round, and you can almost feel the mother’s hand on her feet.

I remember washing my sons’ feet when they were babies, and how much I learned by being a father. I learned that these little people needed to be provided for. They needed to be fed and protected and they needed to be kept clean. That was something I had to learn when I became a father.

I remember hearing a story on NPR about a four star general. It was a profile of his life at the Pentagon, and how much responsibility he carried and the decisions he had to make every day. The reporter followed him home after work and interviewed him and his wife about their home life. He said that when he came home from work, he had to put aside his role as a general and become a husband. If he came home and the garbage needed to be taken out, he would take out the garbage. He said that he discovered that if he didn’t do that, his ego would become unmanageable. Taking out the garbage kept him human. It’s the same thing with washing someone’s feet.

Perhaps you’ve participated in a foot washing ceremony on Maundy Thursday. I’ve done it may times, and I’m always impressed by the difference in people’s feet. Some feet are long and elegant and muscular. Some feet are puffy and swollen and tender. Some feet seem misshapen and lumpy and uncomfortable. Everyone’s feet are different, and when you wash them you sense the personality of that person through their feet.

So let’s imagine that Jesus is washing our feet. Close your eyes and imagine Jesus kneeling at your feet. “Let me wash your feet,” he says gently. Your feet are dirty after walking through dusty streets, and you feel embarrassed to have Jesus do this. You protest, but he insists, and you give in.

He takes your feet in his hands and he pours warm water over your feet. Then he takes his hands and rubs your feet, carefully washing off all the dirt and grime. His hands run along the bottom of your foot which is so sensitive, and you feel how gentle his hands are. His fingers run between your toes, making every part clean.

Then he takes the towel and wraps it around your feet. The towel is warm and dry, and it massages your foot to a new level of energy. As he finishes both your feet, he steps back and he says to you, “I’ve washed your feet. Now will you wash others’ feet?”

And you say, “Yes, Lord, I will. I will do to others what you did to me.”

Doesn’t it feel good to have clean feet? Doesn’t it feel refreshing? Doesn’t it feel like a new start, a new beginning? Having your feet washed by Jesus is like feeling brand new again, cleansed, forgiven.

Jesus has given us this sacrament of foot washing as a way of teaching us that we are to care for other people. The church is supposed to be a place where people care for each other. In the church we remember that we are human, and we remember that every person deserves care and support.

In our baptismal vows we’re asked, “Will you seek and serve Christ in all persons, loving your neighbor as yourself? And we say, “I will, with God’s help.” When we care for another person, it’s as though we are caring for Christ. Jesus has washed our feet, now we wash his feet.

Questions for Lenten Meditation Small Groups

1. Share a time when you washed another person’s feet.

2. How do you feel when someone touches your feet?

3. What feelings did you have as you imagined Jesus washing your feet?

4. Why do you think Jesus chose foot washing as the last lesson to give the disciples?

5. Share a time when you felt cared for in the church.

62. A Prayer attributed to St. Francis (BCP, p. 833)

Concluding Prayer, said together
Lord, make us instruments of your peace. Where there is hatred, let us sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is discord, union; where there is doubt, faith; where
there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy. Grant that we may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Pastoral care tag teams

Yesterday and today I spent some time in the hospital visiting two parishioners who had surgery. Vivian had a hip replacement and Kaye had a colostomy reversed. Both surgeries were successful and both patients are resting comfortable today. Now they face long recoveries with the struggle to return to normal.

I was impressed with the level of care our parish provided. Yesterday, when Vivian went into surgery, several people from our parish were there to support Dave, and today when I visited, I bumped into several parishioners making their rounds to visit both Kaye and Vivian. When they get out of the hospital and return home, I know they'll have meals offered for them so they don't have to worry about cooking.

This is the pastoral care of the church at its best. When one of us is in trouble, we rise to the occasion to provide care and support. I'm glad I'm part of the network of care we provide.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

New decals for St. Antony's

We have new decals for St. Antony's! These decals show the Episcopal shield and the classic phrase, "The Episcopal Church welcomes you". AND they get our name out in the community.

One of our goals is to get more public recognition for St. Antony's. Here's an easy way to do it. These decals are the brainchild of John and Janet Steller, who made the initial funding possible. They're available for $5.00 each. Try one.

Monday, March 16, 2009

The Spirit also helpeth us

LeeAnne Campos, our fabulous director, with me in tux

Last week was a very busy week for me. In addition to the usual press of duties, I preached at a memorial service and had extra rehearsals for the Sacred and Sublime concert of the Bremerton Chorale, capped by our Saturday night performance.

The concert music was all beautiful music with a spiritual message, but I was especially captivated by the Bach motet we sang, "The Spirit also helpeth us" (In German, that's "Der Geist unsrer Schwachheit auf", but luckily we sang in English).

The text comes from Romans 8:26-27, "Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but that very Spirit intercedes for us with sighs too deep for words. And God, who searches the heart, knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God."

I've read these words many times, but there's something about singing them in this beautiful piece of music that imprints them on the mind. The music repeats the words over and over as the two choirs weave the music back and forth.

I understand this passage to mean that even though our prayers are weak and insufficient, the Holy Spirit interprets our prayers and adds to them so that they gain perfection of prayer as they reach God's ears. The Spirit of God sighs through our being and breathes a prayer through us.

What this means is that our prayers are much deeper and more profound than we realize. As we place ourselves in prayer, God hears our prayers even as they are being formed in our minds, and God adds to them even before they leave our lips. God not only hears our prayers, but God also prays for us.

The actual words we sang were:

The Spirit also helpeth us,
for we know not what we ought pray for,
and pray for rightly.
But lo, the Spirit prays for us and pleadeth
with mystic groaning and sighing.
But he who doth search the hearts well doth know
what the Spirit's mind is,
for he doth plead for saints in Christ,
as God our Father wills it.

O Thou holy fire, Paraclete,
fill us with joy and comfort sweet.
Grant thou we may serve thee solely,
in hours of grief trust thee wholly.
O Lord, impart to us thy strength
that we subdue our flesh at length,
rout foes so vile, so infernal,
and pass through death to life eternal. Alleluia!

I'm grateful I got to sing this beautiful piece of music. The photo above is of LeeAnne Campos, our director, with me in tux. LeeAnne is the most amazing and talented singer, teacher, and conductor. She has greatly inspired me. I guess you might say she is the spirit that "also helpeth" me.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Bishop's Committee Retreat

Today we had a our Bishop's Committee retreat. We spent the day at Seabeck Conference Center thinking about who we are as a parish and where we want to go. It was a very positive time together, and I think we accomplished a lot.

I asked the members of the BC to complete this sentence: "We are a ______ church." Here's what we came up with:
  • caring
  • friendly
  • welcoming
  • joyful
  • family
We talked about our values as a parish and we came up with this list of values:
We value:
  • Welcoming
  • Courage
  • Respectfulness
  • Diversity
  • Honesty
  • Caring
We also set some goals for ourselves for this year. Here's what we came up with:
  • Repair the kitchen floor before Easter
  • Make up our $15,000 budget deficit
  • Add three new family units
  • Create a narthex task force to recommend improvements
  • Add two new choir members
  • Have a successful dining-out group
  • Create a cry room
  • Prioritize our improvement list
  • Have five successful clean-up days, two of them with a barbecue lunch
  • Celebrate Rogation Day May 17
  • Make a plan for access to the upper area of our property
  • Have a HUD house work party
  • Make the barn ready for the CK Food Bank freezer
It's a long list, but I think it's attainable. Some goals aren't too difficult; others will take some sustained effort and focus.

It was a good day, well spent. We learned how to work together well and we enjoyed each other's company.
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Friday, March 6, 2009

Our mortgage and the mortgage crisis

We're in the process of buying a house, and we're reviewing very long documents that are required for the purchase. There are documents for title insurance, house insurance, closing costs, house inspection, house appraisal, loan documents, and so on, for ever, it seems.

I do my best to read them over and understand them but they're overwhelming. I can't say I understand everything in them, but I trust our loan officer and realtor to make sure everything is satisfactory.

It makes me think about the housing and banking crisis that the nation is experiencing. We've suddenly discovered that our houses aren't worth what we thought they were, and we've learned that real estate prices have been grossly inflated. People signed papers that were worthless.

What is a mortgage, anyway? It's a piece of paper in which you agree to pay a certain amount to the bank every month, in exchange for them paying the purchase price to the seller.

The only trouble is, the bank's money used to pay the seller is often imaginary money, which is another way of saying that it's leveraged money, money that is used many times over. It's valuable as long as the bank is solvent and all its assets are solid. But if the bank makes many loans that go bad, then all of a sudden the bank's money is gone. Poof.

Does anyone actually own anything anymore? Sometimes I think that everything is just being passed around from one financial institution to another and no one actually has outright ownership of anything. All our assets are just fiction.

But a house is still a house, right? And a brick is still a brick. True value never disappears.

A human being has infinite value and can never be sold or mortgaged. Relationships endure because they're built on solid values of love, fidelity and commitment. The soil waits, and the mountains shrug time off. Some things last forever.

"Lord, you have been our refuge from one generation to another." (Psalm 90:1)

No matter what happens to us in this economy, we can always count on the love of God.
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Thursday, March 5, 2009

Vicar's Bible Study

I'm teaching the Vicar's Bible Study every Thursday at noon. We're a group of about a dozen people, and we have lively discussions and an enjoyable time together. Some of us bring lunch and we eat as we talk around the table.

Right now we're discussing the Last Supper. It's a good topic for Lent, as we anticipate Maundy Thursday. That's the worship service we have during Holy Week, just before Easter, as we remember the last days of Jesus' life.

So far we've reviewed the account of Jesus' last supper with his disciples by reading about it in the Gospels of Matthew, Mark, and Luke. They're remarkably close in their recounting of the story, and Paul's account of the last supper in 1 Corinthians 11 accords nicely with them. In all these accounts, Jesus shares a loaf of bread with his disciples and says, "This is my body". He shares a cup of wine and says, "This is my blood."

Today we read the story of the last supper as recounted in the Gospel of John, and found that it's much different. There's no mention of bread and wine, only the story of Jesus washing the disciples' feet.

We also grappled with the thorny question of the date of the last supper. Matthew, Mark, and Luke say it was a Passover meal, but John insists that it was eaten before the Passover.

We went back to Exodus 12 and read the instruction Moses gave about observing the Passover, and we decided that the meal almost was probably not a Passover meal. Since much of our weekly worship revolves around Holy Communion, which is a memorial of the last supper, these questions are fascinating to think about.

Next week, we'll talk more about the Passover meal and what Jesus and the disciples were doing.
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Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Lenten meditations: The feet of Jesus

Tonight we started our Lenten series on the feet of Jesus. Each week I'll give a meditation based on a passage in the scriptures about the feet of Jesus. Then we break into small groups for discussion and close in the large group.

Tonight the scripture passage was Isaiah 52:7, "How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news."

We thought about our feet, what beautiful creations they are. We imagined Jesus' feet traveling the roads of Galilee and Judea. We thought about how our feet bring good news to others. And we pondered what "good news" is to people today.

We had about 22 people for the program and it was a lively group. Next week the scripture passage will be the story of the leper who was healed by Jesus and fell at his feet, and we'll think about gratitude.
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